Our #carselfie game isn't at its best today but we had to take the obligatory trip pic as we venture off on the road for our 3rd annual adventure down south 12 hours to go.... #mainetovirginia #MEtoVA #benandnine2019
#tbt I'm so excited that I get to live near this beach again very soon. I never realized how much I loved visiting this section of the ocean- walking, playing, listening- until I didn't live there anymore. The little things we don't even know have taken up residence in our souls until we're away from them.
So this stuff saved my life. Many of you know my saga of insomnia for the last 2+ years. It's been the most challenging thing I have ever had to deal with. After this much time not knowing if I'll sleep at night and not knowing what kind of day I'll have, it's kept me from being able to make any sort of commitments (definitely not anything before 10am). I couldn't be excited about anything because I feelt like shit all the time. So ad a result, I've been stuck in this anxiety/ insomnia loop (like what came first...🐔or 🐣) I thought I'd give some CBD another go even though my experience with others have been pretty neutral. I found this brand at a shop near me (kind of random because there are so many brands from Maine and this is from Oregon) and it's been life changing. I'm actually sleeping again and have almost completely returned to my normal pattern of one wake up per night. It's amazing. I feel like myself again. I just ordered another one so I don't run out. I take 50mg 3x a day
I haven't been on top of the challenges but couldn't resist this shape from @behrangyoga for #lxyreboot #leagueofextraordinaryyogis #headstand #behrangyoga
I'm 39 today Thus was a tough one. Not even the number and my proximity to the next decade. I know that's not a death sentence anymore. I know I can be are on and healthy well into my 70s. Hell 40 is barely even considered middle-aged (is it? I don't have any idea) I'm having anxiety about this number because I haven't had a chance to have children yet. That's a big one for me. Something I've always wanted, and yet somehow have made it this far without experiencing it. All of it. I've never been pregnant for more than 5 weeks, twice. I don't want to give up on this yet and my window getting smaller isn't helping with my anxiety on this already emotionally charged subject. I found this picture yesterday. It was on of those videos that has constantly changing words so I took a screen shot to see what I would get. Trust. A strong reminder that I need to just trust that things will work out. I really hope they do. (ps, please don't insult me by suggesting adoption... That's not the point)
Trying out that #starpose from @cyogalife #yogaknot #suptamatsyendrasana
Apparently today was my last Saturday yoga class at the studio where I've been teaching for the past 2 years...(didn't know that until afterward...a heads up would have been nice...) ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ But changes are coming, and quickly. We've decided to not stay another cold winter in the Midcoast so we're heading back to southern Maine in June... back to civilization 😅 for a little bit at least. I'm going to have to find some new classes to teach this summer!
#saturdayflow K1&2 #hipsandtwists 3x speed
Trying out @cyogalife challenge #yogaknot because I do love a good twist... Day 1 #ardhamatsyendrasana
I've been out of the game for a while n but when #lxy comes back around, I have to get in...or at least try 😕 My shoulders are really rough right now For @tryahlove @leagueheadquarters #dancingtigerpose #leagueofextraordinaryyogis #lxyreboot
This is a challenging post.... But I was going through some old pictures last week and I came across this one from 1998...21 years between these two! First, how tf has it been 20 years? Second, thank gd-ess I found fitness😂 #kiddingnotkidding But how's this for a powerful #transformationtuesday I wasn't always a fat kid, I was actually really active when I was little. Sturdy, but not fat. I dominated the monkey bars and double Dutch 😏 But then I lost my dad when I was 16 and started self medicating with food...I put on 50lbs within 6 months. I didn't start getting back to myself for a few years, and by then the bad habits had settled in. I did start practicing yoga officially when I was 20 (I did my ytt in 2007), I managed to get myself back to my pre-grief weight for a few years, but any time I had a massive upset- like a break-up or school stress I would revert back to self medicating. 2014 was the year that a switch flipped. Something changed to make me realize that even with small 10-20lb fluctuations that happen sometimes, I'll never go back to being that isolated, depressed, self medicating person again. Yes, the past couple of years have been really rough. I have days when everything feels like it's crumbling. I know that if I didn't have a class to teach, I probably wouldn't get out of bed those days. But I go, and I push through whatever it is that takes hold of me on those days, and I sweat it out. It might only fix it for that hour, but i always feel better after moving 100% of the time. Yoga broke the seal into my journey of movement instruction, and the les mills group kept it going. It's still going...I'M still going and growing. I'm collecting certs like some people collect...well, whatever people collect these days...and I'm looking to open my own studio. That 17 year old kid up there would NEVER have believed you if you told her this is where she would be in 20 years. Moral of the story is, keep following your path, even if you have no idea where it will take you
#saturdayflow 3x speed Short and sweet today Working on some fire to offset #kaphaseason The warm up was long and slow...
I didn't want to push to go any deeper than this and undo all the healing that has occurred so far, but compared to last month my shoulders are feeling so much better. I have @bencarrollmusic 's mom's magic healing balm to credit for that. Balsam poplar and hypericum for the win!🤗
Despite having a really rough start today because I only slept about 2.5 hours and my head feeling like it got hit by a truck .....(seriously what the actual F) My body felt surprisingly strong and open, ie: not stiff like the tin man . #smallvictories #illtakeit
#saturdayflow Speed 5x. It was a slow deep one today
I haven't felt like a normal functioning human for a while. I guess you can say I'm just a fragment of myself. My sleep is still being weird. And any diversion from routine sets me back a few days with flare-ups. I'm frustrated and exhausted. I'm trying to be positive and keep moving forward. But most days I just feel like I'm moving through mud. I'm really ready for this to be done with me. I want my life back.
Well, that was intense. The full moon, which was also a super moon, landed on the vernal equinox/ ostara....and really fucked me up 😂😂😂😣😖 I'm certainly starting to acknowledge that I'm really sensitive to these energies. Full moons, new moons, solar activity, and even the vibration that happens before a major event (like an earthquake or in the case of last week, the shooting in NZ) can be felt like shock waves by those of us who are a bit more sensitive. Let's just say that March has not been an easy month... Lately, I'm feeling it as a flare-up of my nervous system (and massive insomnia) - because that's what has been going on with me for the past couple of years ...that's my weakest link right now. I remember a few years ago it would hit me as a deep sorrow. Now it's insomnia, vertigo and depression. It's probably something different in your body. You might pass it off as something completely isolated. I'm really only just learning how to navigate through life as an empath. It's challenging and unsettling at times. But I know there's also a powerful tool in that. I'm grateful for mentors like @empathicwoman who teach me tools (lile EFT tapping) to use at these times and also help me realize that I'm not losing my mind...I'm just really open to subtle energetic movement. How has your month been? What have you been feeling lately?
Trying to find a little peace with myself. My body still is not feeling as open as it was a couple years ago....somehow I've managed to gain 10 lbs since Dec- without doing anything differently. Trying to acknowledge that sometimes even doing "all the right things" doesn't always produce the desired results. Sometimes it has nothing to do with any physical action. Have you experienced this?
#saturdayflow The full version Karma 1&2 K1 5x speed K2 6x speed
I don't have any new pictures, so please enjoy this #wbw from 2015... . . . Cue the foot fetishists in 3...2...